It's Hard To Define

I've had a lot on my mind lately, and most if it is so angry it doesn't need to be shared.  However, I'll share what I can without being a jerk.

First of all, I'm tired of the Holier Than Thou Eco Nazis.  I use paper towels.  Get over it.  What else am I going to clean cat barf up with?  I'm not running that toxic sludge through my clothes washer.  I do my best in other areas.  I do what I can to responsibly water my lawn, which is a unending battle with my husband who thinks that the lawn needs to be watered constantly.  I plan my trips; when you drive a gas guzzling wildebeest, you have to.  I eat only ranch raised, free grazing, beef and pork in moderation.  I try to buy locally, so the goods I'm consuming don't circumnavigate the globe before they reach my house.  I plant a garden, compost, dry clothes outside when I can, and I keep my use of electricity to a minimum.  I use steam cleaners to clean and sterilize my house.  Short of killing myself, I don't know how much more I can feasibly reduce my carbon foot print.

Which brings me to my next point.  I can't deal with the amount of crap I'm supposed to buy and participate in to be cool.  On one hand we should leave no trace; and on the other you're considered backwards if you aren't driving the latest model car, siding your house with stucco, taking your boat to the Gorge, and going shopping every weekend.  I'm over it.  I have 3 functioning pick-ups in my fleet, 2 of them are paid for, and the other one will be paid off very soon.  We're not buying another one.  Debt is the modern equivalent of slavery.  Our house is unexciting and dated, and until it's paid off, it's going to become less exciting and more dated everyday.  I tired of my husband working his guts out just to maintain the norm.  I want to be better than normal, and I think he shouldn't be asked to take on hundreds of thousands of dollars worth of debt to be cool.

Finally, just because I don't support gay marriage doesn't mean I hate gay people.  No really.  I don't support the government's recognition of marriage, period.  That includes; gay, straight, polygamist, and anything else you come up with.  Who you choose to be with is none of their business, the only reason they are is so they can find new and interesting ways to tax you.  It's got nothing to do with morals or equality.  It's all about money.  I want to see welfare, social security, medicare, and medicade gone too.  These are just ways to control people.  They have nothing to do with helping anyone.  These programs help divide up our population and assign labels like "low income," "disabled," and "at risk," they do nothing to actually improve our quality of life.

I don't know what I am exactly, it's hard to define.  I think global warming is actually a warm crock of you know what, but I think that everyone should be doing their best to use less and be responsible in their treatment of the environment.  Scaring people into doing the right thing is not okay.  I'm heavily invested in the stock market and I love capitalism, but consumerism will be the end of the world as we know it.  Trying to regulate debt and the US Dollar won't fix it.  Mostly I'm angry and disgusted that you cannot have a productive discussion on any of these topics with people from either side of the issues.  You just get blasted with the same old propaganda over and over again.  Is it a lack of self confidence that leads people to believe that they must cling on to these old ideas and ways of doing things?  Are we too stupid to think for ourselves? No, I think it is much worse than that.  We are too lazy to.